ents.Allthemeninhercircleseemedtoadmireherandenvyme.Iwasdazzled,stimulated:mysenseswereexcited;andbeingignorant,raw,andinexperiehoughtIlovedher.Thereisnofollysobesottedthattheidioticrivalriesofsociety,theprurieherashheblindnessofyouth,willnothurryamantoitsission.Herrelativesencedme;petitorspiquedme;shealluredme:amarriagewasachievedalmostbeforeIknewwhereIwas.Oh,IhavenorespeyselfwhenIthinkofthatact!—anagonyofinwardptmastersme.Ineverloved,Ieemed,Ididnotevenknowher.Iwasnotsureoftheexistenceofoueiure:Ihadmarkedhermodesty,norbenevolenordour,norrefiinhermindormanners—and,Imarriedher:-gross,grovelling,mole-eyedblockheadthatIwas!WithlesssinImighthave—ButletmeremembertowhomIamspeaking.”

    “Mybride’smotherIhadneverseen:Iuoodshewasdead.Thehoneymoonover,Ilearnedmymistake;shewasonlymad,andshutupinalunaticasylum.Therewasayoungerbrother,too—apletedumbidiot.Theelderone,whomyouhaveseen(andwhomIothate,whilstIabhorallhiskindred,becausehehassomegrainsofaffeinhisfeeblemind,showniieresthetakesinhiswretchedsister,andalsoinadog-likeattatheone),willprobablybeinthesamestateoneday.MyfatherandmybrotherRowlandknewallthis;buttheythoughtonlyofthethirtythousandpounds,andjoiheplotagainstme.”

    “Thesewerevilediscoveries;butexceptforthetreacheryofcealment,Ishouldhavemadethemnosubjectofreproaywife,evenwhenIfouurewhollyalientomiastesobnoxioustome,herindon,low,narrow,andsingularlyincapableofbeioanythinghigher,expaoanythinglarger—whenIfoundthatIcouldnotpassasingleevening,norevenasinglehourofthedaywithheri