tovisitme.Ihadhadnounicatioerormessagewiththeouterworld:school-rules,school-duties,school-habitsandnotions,andvoices,andfaces,andphrases,andes,andpreferences,andantipathies—suchwaswhatIknewofexistendnowIfeltthatitwasnotenough;Itiredoftheroutiyearsiernoon.Idesiredliberty;forlibertyIgasped;forlibertyIutteredaprayer;itseemedscatteredonthewindthenfaintlyblowing.Iabaandframedahumblersupplication;forge,stimulus:thatpetition,too,seemedsweptoffintovaguespace:“Then,”Icried,halfdesperate,“graleastaude!”

    Hereabell,ringingthehourofsupper,calledmedownstairs.

    Iwasnotfreetoresumetheinterruptedofmyreflestillbedtime:eveeacherwhooccupiedthesameroomwithmekeptmefromthesubjecttowhichIloorecur,byaprolongedeffusionofsmalltalk.HowIwishedsleepwouldsileseemedasif,couldIbutgobacktotheideawhichhadlastenteredmymindasIstoodatthewindow,someiivesuggestionwouldriseformyrelief.

    MissGryoredatlast;shewasaheavyWelshwoman,andtillnowherhabitualnasalstrainshadneverbeenregardedbymeinanyhtthanasanuisao-nightIhailedthefirstdeephsatisfa;Iwasdebarrassedofinterruption;myhalf-effacedthoughtinstantlyrevived.

    “Aude!Thereissomethinginthat,”Isoliloquised(mentally,beituood;Ididnottalkaloud),“Iknowthereis,becauseitdoesnotsoundtoosweet;itisnotlikesuchwordsasLiberty,Excitement,Enjoyment:delightfulsoundstruly;butnomorethansoundsforme;andsohollowaingthatitismerewasteoftimetolistentothem.ButServitude!Thatmustbematteroffayonemayserve:Ihaveservedhereeightyears;nowallIwantistoserveelsewhere.otgetsomuyownwill