hileAdèleplayedwithhernurse,andMrs.Fairfaxmadejelliesioreroom,Iclimbedthethreestaircases,raisedthetrap-dooroftheattidhavingreachedtheleads,lookedoutafaroversequesteredfieldandhill,andalongdimsky-lihatthenIlongedforapowerofvisionwhichmightoverpassthatlimit;whichmightreachthebusyworld,towns,regionsfulloflifeIhadheardofbutneverseen—thatthenIdesiredmoreofpracticalexperiehanIpossessed;moreofintercoursewithmykind,ofacquaintahvarietyofcharacter,thanwasherewithinmyreach.IvaluedwhatwasgoodinMrs.Fairfax,andwhatwasgoodinAdèle;butIbelievedieherandmorevividkindsofgoodness,andwhatIbelievedinIwishedtobehold.

    Whoblamesme?Many,nodoubt;andIshallbecalleddistented.Icould:therestlessnesswasinmynature;itagitatedmetopaiimes.Thenmysolereliefwastowalkalongthecorridorofthethirdstorey,backwardsandforwards,safeinthesilendsolitudeofthespot,andallowmymiodwellonwhateverbrightvisionsrosebeforeit—aainly,theyweremanyandglowing;toletmyheartbeheavedbytheexultantmovement,which,whileitswelleditintrouble,expawithlife;aofall,toopenmyinwardeartoatalethatwasneverealemyimaginatioed,andnarratedtinuously;quiedwithallofi,life,fire,feeling,thatIdesiredandhadnotinmyactualexistence.

    Itisinvaintosayhumanbeingsoughttobesatisfiedwithtranquillity:theymusthavea;andtheywillmakeitiftheyotfindit.Millionsareoastillerdoomthanmine,andmillionsareirevoltagainsttheirlot.Nobodyknowshowmanyrebellionsbesidespoliticalrebellionsfermentinthemassesoflifewhichpeopleearth.Womenaresupposedtobeverycalmgenerally:butwomenfeeljustasmehey