fromit,andtohavetogowhoknowswhere?”
Andthenmymindmadeitsfirstearefforttoprehendwhathadbeenioitingheavenandhell;andforthefirsttimeitrecoiled,baffled;andforthefirsttimeglangbehind,oneachside,andbeforeit,itsawallroundanunfathomedgulf:itfelttheonepoistood—thepresent;alltherestwasformlesscloudandvatdepth;anditshudderedatthethoughtoft,andplungingamidthatchaos.Whilepthisnewidea,Iheardthefrontdooropen;Mr.Batescameout,andwithhimwasaershehadseenhimmounthishorsea,shewasabouttoclosethedoor,butIranuptoher.
“HowisHelenBurns?”
“Verypoorly,”wastheanswer.
“IsitherMr.Bateshasbeentosee?”
“Yes.”
“Andwhatdoeshesayabouther?”
“Hesaysshe’llnotbeherelong.”
Thisphrase,utteredinmyhearierday,wouldhaveonlyveyedthenotionthatshewasabouttoberemovedtoNorthumberland,toherownhome.Ishouldnothavesuspectedthatitmeantshewasdying;butIknewinstantlynow!ItopenedclearonmyprehensionthatHelenBurnswasnumberingherlastdaysinthisworld,andthatshewasgoingtobetakentionofspirits,ifsuchregiontherewere.Iexperiencedashockofhorror,thenastrongthrillofgrief,thenadesire—aytoseeher;andIaskedinwhatroomshelay.
“SheisinMissTemple’sroom,”saidthenurse.
“MayIgoupaoher?”
“Ohno,child!Itisnotlikely;andnowitistimeforyoutoein;you’llcatchthefeverifyoustopoutwhenthedewisfalling.”
Thenurseclosedthefrontdoor;Iwentinbythesideentrancewhichledtotheschoolroom:Iwasjustiwasnineo’clodMissMillerwascallingthepupilstogotobed.
Itmightbetwohourslater,probablyneareleven,when