hy,thereareoypeoplewhohaveheardyoucalledso,andtheworldtainshundredsofmillions.”
“ButwhathaveItodowithmillions?Theeighty,Iknow,despiseme.”
“Jane,youaremistaken:probablynotoheschooleitherdespisesordislikesyou:many,Iamsure,pityyoumuch.”
“HowtheypitymeafterwhatMr.Brocklehursthassaid?”
“Mr.Brocklehurstisnotagod:norisheeveandadmiredman:heislittlelikedhere;heookstepstomakehimselfliked.Hadhetreatedyouasanespecialfavourite,youwouldhavefoundenemies,declaredorcovert,allaroundyou;asitis,thegreaternumberwouldofferyousympathyiftheydared.Teachersandpupilsmaylookcoldlyonyouforadayortwo,butfriendlyfeelingsarecealedintheirhearts;andifyoupersevereindoihesefeelingswillerelongappearsomuchthemoreevidentlyfortheirtemporarysuppression.Besides,Jane”—shepaused.
“Well,Helen?”saidI,puttingmyhandintohers:shechafedmyfingersgentlytowarmthem,aon—
“Ifalltheworldhatedyou,andbelievedyouwicked,whileyourownsceapprovedyou,andabsolvedyuilt,youwouldhoutfriends.”
“No;IknowIshouldthinkwellofmyself;butthatisnotenough:ifothersdon’tlovemeIwouldratherdiethanlive—Iotbeartobesolitaryandhated,Helen.Lookhere;togainsomerealaffefromyou,orMissTemple,oranyotherwhomItrulylove,Iwouldwillinglysubmittohavetheboneofmyarmbroken,ortoletabulltossme,ortostandbehindakighorse,adashitshoofatmychest—”
“Hush,Jane!youthinktoomuchoftheloveofhumanbeings;youaretooimpulsive,toovehement;thesnhandthatcreatedyourframe,andputlifeintoit,hasprovidedyouwithotherresourcesthanyourfeebleself,orthauresf