aid,“Youknow,Mr.Miyake,something’sbeenkindofbme.DoyoumindifIaskyouaboutit?”
“Whatkindofsomething?”
“Somethingpersonal.”
Miyakescratchedhisstubblycheekswiththeflatofhishand.“Well,Idon’tknow.Iguessit’dbeokay.”
“Iwasjustwif,maybe,youhadawifesomewhere.”
Miyakepulledtheflaskfromthepocketofhisleatherjacket,ope,andtookalong,slowdrink.Theonthecap,slippedtheflaskintohispocket,andlookedatJunko.
“Wheredidthatefromallofasudden?”
“It’snotallofasudden.Ikindofgotthefeelingbefore,whenKeisukestartedtalkingabouttheearthquake.Isawthelookonyourfadyouknowwhatyouooldme,abouthowpeople’seyeshavesomethinghoaboutthemwhenthey’rewatgafire.”
“Idid?”
“Anddoyouhavekids,too?”
“Yup.Twoof’em.”
“InKht?”
“That’swherethehouseis.Isupposethey’restilllivingthere.”
“WhereinKobe?”
“TheHigashi-Nadase.Upinthehills.Notmuchdamagethere.”
Miyakenarrowedhiseyes,raisedhisfadlookedoutatthedarksea.Theurnedhiseyesbacktothefire.
“That’swhyI’tblameKeisuke,”hesaid.“I’tcallhimanidiot.Idon’thavetheright.I’mnotusingmybrainanymorethanheis.I’mtheidiotking.IthinkyouknowwhatImean.”
“Doyouwanttotellmemore?”
“No,”Miyakesaid.“Ireallydon’t.”
“Okay,I’llstop,then.ButIwillsaythis.Ithinkyoodperson.”
“That’snottheproblem,”Miyakesaid,shakinghisheadagain.Hedrewakindofdesigninthesandwiththetipofabranch.“Tellme,Jun,haveyoueverthoughtabouthowyoingtodie?”
Junkopohisforawhile,thenshookherhead.
“Well,It