AndIdidntknow.Theyfeedmeandeandgivemeboozemoneyandeducatemeandallthat.WhenItalktheylisten.IjustthoughtthatifItoldthemtheyhadtohelpme,theydhelpme.IneverrealizedtherewasnothingIcouldsay,andnothingtheycouldsay,andnothingtheycoulddo.

    Sothatmoment,whenMumaskedmehowtheycouldhelp,itwassortoflikethemomenttheguyjumpedofftheroof.Imean,itwasntashorribleorasscaryandnoonediedandwewereindoorsetcetera.Butyouknowhowyoukeepthingstuckedupinthebackofyourheadinasortofrainydaybox?Forexample,youthink,oneday,ifIthaanymore,thenIlltopmyself.Oneday,ifImreallyfugupbadly,thenIlljustgiveupandaskMumandDadtobailmeout.Anyway,thementalrainydayboxtynow,andthejokewasthattherehadneverbeenanythinginitallthetime.

    So,IdidwhatInormallydointhesesituations.ItoldmymumtofuckoffandItoldmydadtofuckoffandthe,eventhoughIposedtobetalkingtosomeoneelsesfriendsandfamilyafterwards.

    AndthenwhenIgotuptothetopofthestairs,Ifeltstupid,butitwastoolatetogobackdownagain,soIjustwalkedstraightoutthedooranddowreetandintotheAngelundergroundandIgotonthefirsttrainthatcame.Noonechasedafterme.

    JJTheminuteIsawEdandLizziedowninthatbasement,Ifeltthisuntrollablelittleflickerofhope.Like,thisisit!Theyveetorescueme!Therestofthebaingupftonight,aerwardsLizzieandIaregoingbacktothiscuteapartmentthatshesrentedforthetwoofus!Thatswhatshesbeendoingallthistime!Apartmenthuntinganddecorating!And…WhosthatoldguytalkingtoJess?Couldhebearecord-paive?HasEdfixedusupwithanewdeal?No,hehasnt.TheoldguyisJesssdad,andlaterIfoundoutthatLizzie